The Luxuxry of Parents

is awesome.


Really glad my family is here in Vancouver. Though their stay is going to be short and I can't spend as much time with them as I like cos of finals. I'm still super glad they're here.

And also, a little note to everyone out there, your parents are the best, make sure you let them know it!

Stop

being.so.bleedingly.annoying.

It's 3a.m.

Somehow, somewhere along the way, I lost sight of the goal.

I can't believe I'm up at 3.30 a.m. in the morning "studying". I'm not even really studying, just randomly whiling time away. Spanish mid-term and Psych quiz tomorrow. Damn.

I don't know how or why I just lost focus and motivation to study. I need to focus and get them back, finals are in less than three weeks away!

And over here, we have it totally different from Singapore, and perhaps many other places across the globe. We don't get time off to study, we're expected to go to class and do the whole usual routine and sit for our mid-terms/finals. It's pretty intense.

I'm not really used to it since back in JC, we got a whole month to study for our mid-terms and also time off from class to study from finals. I kind of get why I suddenly feel like I always have so little time, probably cos I'm forced to do my work on a regular basis cos it's test after test back to back whereas in JC, you can just slack off the whole time and then cram when you get your study break.

I can't believe how time flies though, the term is ending. I kind of don't want the term to end, cos I really am enjoying going to my classes and learning all that I am learning. Unlike the past, I don't find myself dreading to go to class or questioning how the material I'm learning will be useful or relevant to me in the future. I haven't fully registered for my courses next term yet, I'm currently only registered in three. I hope I can find classes that I really like and enjoy.

Pretty excited that my family is coming is slightly more than a week! : ) It IS a bummer that I won't be able to spend as much time as I like with them cos finals are looming... which is a reminder myself to FREAKING STUDY SUPER HARD THIS WEEKEND and not procrastinate so I can have more time with them when they arrive. Excited, excited! I miss them a lot- even my brother.

Must.cram.Spanish.and.Psychology.NOW.


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Shreya: Haha, they are! Well, actually, the wind is scarier. I never though I'd hate the wind till I came here. Well, to me, Canada and America are pretty similar but the Canadians and Americans will probably tell you otherwise. I haven't seen Jamba Juice around here, but they have stuff like Booster juice etc, which is pretty similar. Wish I could send you some! : )

Voy a fallar en español!

¿Por qué soy tan estúpida?

¿Por qué es el español es tan difícil? Necesito centrarme y estudiar muy duro.

ARGH

I WANT TO BLOODY KILL AIR CANADA!!!!!

Nooooo....

I feel very insecure when the course I'm taking only allows me to view my grades online. Like, I can't help but wonder if my grades were keyed in wrongly or something. Like maybe the prof or TA had so much shit to key in that instead of putting in 38, they put in 83? And they'll realise it days later and when I log on again, I'll realise that I failed instead of passing and be driven to insanity.

Argh, and Spanish is so difficult! I tried to do a translation exercise and I finished it, but not without my good friend, Google Translate doing most of the work for me. I'm pretty smart though, I know who I should be friends with and how to use their skills to my advantage!

SO going to FAIL SPANISH. ARGH.

Leaves

I tend to feel extremely threatened or alarmed when I see a huge bunch of leaves blowing in my direction, which happens a lot these days, since you know it's fall... and leaves are everywhere and the wind is overwhelmingly strong. It's like the leaves having a partaye, if you know what I mean, they're moving all over the damn place. I feel especially stressed out when I walk past the huge heap of leaves near the SUB, by the knoll- the pile is three times my height, dammit. What if the wind blows everything my way?

I shudder at that thought. But anyway, what are you supposed to do when leaves come blowing your way. Some of us might have never experienced this phenomenon and think little of it. But trust me, one day, when you finally chance upon this gargantuan heap of leaves blowing you way, you'll know I mean.

Like, honestly, I don't want to seem like I'm afraid of the leaves. I mean, I'll look like a complete loser if I start squirming and quicken my steps as I walk away from the moving leaf pile. People are just going to think, Sheesh, what's her problem? Never seen leaves before? They're just leaves. Especially since I'm in Canada and the Canadians are fearless (The Americans will tell you a different story, but that's not the point.) Canadians will go outside in t-shirt and boardshorts in this cold, cold weather and they'll play ultimate like it's summer... they will think I'm crazy for shunning a heap of leaves.

But honestly, I am terrified of leaves. I really am. Imagine this with me, 300 or so brown objects hurling your way. Of course, they're light and ALMOST harmless (ever heard of a leaf cut with the velocity those things are moving at?) but it's still intimidating to walk straight-on into 300 spiraling objects coming your way, is it not?

I've tried to observe what people do when they encounter a similar situation. I have been unsuccessful in observing peoples' reactions to this situation because it seems like I am the only leaf magnet around here. But lately, as the winds have gotten stronger and the leaves on the ground have grown more plentiful, I have observed people caught in similar situations over the last week. Usually the dudes will just walk straight into the oncoming leaf heap, not a flash of fright in their eyes. Reactions tend to vary across the board for the women, the more casually dressed tend to walk straight into the leaf heap as well. Others tend to hesitate a little bit before walking straight on, deciding that they don't want to look like losers. While a small bunch, completely divert away from the heap without a second thought.

I dont' know what I should do. As the winds grow more intense, my anxiety levels are rising. I'm too old for such amounts of stress.

In other news, Spanish is killing me. I have not been studying even though my mid-term is this coming Friday and I SUCK at Spanish. Even though I enjoy it and we're starting to be able to apply it to everyday life... I'm still so bad at it. Furthermore, my weekends aren't going to be dedicated to studying- movie night on Saturday and Posh on Sunday. I'm really looking forward to Posh, cos it's so cheap and good. We all need hotpot on days that are cold and windy... I just don't like it that the smell sticks to my clothes. :/

I also have decided not to go back to Singapore for Christmas. Firstly, cos it's only for three weeks. It doesn't make sense for me to go back now when I get a ridiculous four and a half month break in summer. Secondly, I don't want to go through the tedious process of having to leave home again. I also haven't been away for that long. I'm not at the point where I'm dying to go home. Also, my family is coming over to visit and get their PR in a few weeks, so the missing Singapore factor is even lower. And I'm pretty excited about that!

I pretty sure the missing Singapore factor will go up when it starts to snow which is rumoured to be in a few weeks though I certainly hope not! I honestly have never felt hot since I came here... I kind of miss the feeling of actually perspiring.

Okay, back to watching How I Met Your Mother- I mean, studying Spanish.

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Beatrice: Yup, it's actually a pin with a poppy on it. Though indeed widely associated with the drug, opium, it is also used as a symbol to commemorate the sacrifice of veterans and civilians in wars on Remembrance Day. I won't feel sad about losing a bobby pin- I've lost probably a hundred of them and I most certainly know how to spell it!

Diane: Indeed, I was actually wearing it in one of my photos. Well, at least I have a photo of it after losing it. :/

Why Do You Have to be So Cold?

Dear Vancouver,

I love you I really do. But you're hella cold.

It seems like fall came and left in an instant... the campus was beautiful for maybe only three days. But when it was, it was magical. All the lovely golds and oranges and reds, it was a beautiful sight. : )

But now, the leaves are starting to fall, heaps of leaves are all over the floor, the trees are bare... not to mention, less daylight hours. It's like dark by 6pm! SO depressing. And I've yet to mention the rain.

I really regret not taking photos during that period of time, all the colour has turn to grey. It's not surprising the area is called "Point grey". Huhur.

Random photo time:

Went to Safeway last night and stocked up on a lot of food. Room was in a terrible mess.

And it's Remembrance Day today! So we get a day off school- which we wisely spend in the library, not studying. :/




I lost my poppy pin on the way to Starbucks. Z.




Grey, grey skies today. : / At least it's not raining!

This was taken a few days ago. The tree is almost bare now. I have a clear view of the people living on the other side of the building... which is weird, cos they probably have a good view of me too, which is why I leave my blinds closed these days.

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Beatrice: NO HE DOESN'T! The only thing they have in common are that they are good-looking and talented!

Qianyu: Yup. I even took a photo with my newly prized possessions! : D (below)

Sherlene: Thanks, I'll try not to! It's really hard though... I've had so many sleepless nights cos of that damn econ paper. Boo. And yeah, there were four but Paul left since a few back which is why they disbanded back then. I think they are better off without him anyway!

Shao Sheng: Of course, Ris Low is so shingz. I might not be in Singapore, but I always keep myself up-to-date with its happenings!! I watched that video like, three times!

I Am Still Not Over You...

I cannot believe that I cannot get over the Econ mid-term. ARGH.

It is haunting me. Every night, every waking moment, my heart is filled with the deepest misery and regret. It's almost like a bad break up... not that I would know, but I imagine it to be so anyway.

I think I have some sort of psychological disorder- like I enjoy screwing myself over for some odd reason. I mean I knew that I should have studied my obese ass off, but nooooo, I carried on watching Big Bang Theory and whatever random shaiz.

This of course, could be the hindsight bias working its effect over me. But I SWEAR I KNEW.

So why am I still so miserable if I had know it all along? I don't know. Maybe cos... I'm crazy?! Probably.

On a more positive note,

Thank you Monster Bea and Monster Lee. This cheered me up significantly, as you can see from my expression. : D

Thank you guys so much, you two are aweshum!

Still missing one and all back home. I promise to reply all e-mails, fb messages etc. ASAP. In fact, I'm off to do that now! : )

Take You Home

And there's no regrets. At least not yetttt... Omg, a1 is aweshum.

I'm really liking this song. Anyone wanna buy me the CD? I'm pretty damn sure I won't be able to get it here in Vancouver or anywhere in North America for that matter.